Silly Hopeless Girl

i hate how you make me feel.

scared because i shouldnt still have feelings for you.

guilty because i think i made a mistake.

jealous because she has you now.

confused because i cant make up my mind.

if its not real than why does it hurt so much? why do i get the feeling i'll throw up my lunch whenever you look at me? why do certain love songs make me think of you? why is it subconscious to think of you? why does my heart feel like its burning? why do i feel like an IDIOT?! auuuuuuuuuuuuuughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgggggggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrr

i just wish you would stop...just... gah being YOU. and i wish i would stop being ME.

heart. you there. yeah im talkin to you. stop catching on fire when i think about him.

and mind. hey you up there. push him off and shove all thoughts of him out my ear.

music. stop playing love songs NOW.

haha at least i can control that last one.

dammit eyes. turn off the fuckin faucet!!!@

ok.